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100 Spiritual Walking Steps – Step 7- Feel the Rain

I like to think of myself as someone that shares her walk with the Lord, and invites others to join me in the journey.
In that regard, I have some preconceived ideas about what I should write about, and what should be referenced.
The thing is, I live in the world, even though I choose to not be OF the world, and there are some songs IN the World that have really struck a chord with me lately, pun intended.

Step 6’s was “The Rose”
Step 7’s is “Unwritten”
First verse:

I am unwritten,
can’t read my mind, I’m undefined
I’m just beginning, the pen’s in my hand,
ending unplanned

Theologically – this is not true, if you believe in a divine plan from the beginning of the earth. I am not writing to discuss the theological aspects of predestination and election. IF one is so interested in that discussion, Wikipedia has a general article on Predestination(Calvinism). Since I am a mix of Arminianism and Calvinism, I have the challenge with believing that all things are preordained, and at the very same time, I have free will in every aspect of my life.

While I believe that all things are known to God from the beginning…Acts 15:18…I also belive that I am responsible for my own choices…Joshua 24:15 and I choose LIFE in Jesus Christ.

2 Cor 3:2-3 You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by everybody.
You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts.

I am a letter…written on the tablet of my heart…sharing what Jesus has done in my life.
Today, at this moment, everything that has past is past, and written down in the Lamb’s book of life.

Rev 20:12 And I saw the dead, small and great, stand before God; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is [the book] of life: and the dead were judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works.

Yesterday, every moment that is past, is already written down.
Now, I can focus on that…but the beauty of living in Jesus’s Love is that He doesn’t choose to remember the bad:

Ps 103:12 As far as the east is from the west, [so] far hath he removed our transgressions from us.

So, with that under my belt, I can lay yesterday, last night, this morning, at the feet of Jesus, and look forward, not bound by the baggage of guilt and condemnation.
But what about the song?
The rest is still unwritten!

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

It has been so long since I felt rain on my skin…I had forgotten how refreshing that was.  I can see a child dancing in the puddles, smiling up at the rain.  That child was me.

I have been told many times, in many ways, that I have a book to write. The book is about my life..and the lessons I’ve learned through trail, trauma, tragedy, and tribulation. It’s not written.  This is a physical example of how I have held back the words, kept them unspoken…and that is not what Jesus, The Word of God, would want from me.

I have spent many years living my life the way other people have told me to.
I have spent many years of NOT drenching myself in the words unspoken.
Here are the lyrics that struck me:

I break tradition,
sometimes my tries,
are outside the lines
We’ve been conditioned to not make mistakes,
but I can’t live that way

I am not the typical Christian, Mom, wife, daughter, sister, friend. I don’t do things the way others do. I am different, but, that’s not so bad!

1 Peter 2:9 But ye [are] a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvellous light:

The “Peculiar” designation goes back to Deuteronomy 14:2 and Deuteronomy 26:18

There is a Voice inside me that tells me which way to go – and I need to allow that Voice to drench me with Words unspoken – and feel the rain of HIS grace and mercy fall upon me.
I’ve been hiding behind a dirty window – looking back at all my mistakes – and I haven’t always been able to see the Light of the Son shine into my being.
No one can do this for me…I need to open my arms up wide…and embrace what God has put before me…and choose wisely the path on which I tread. My future is still unwritten, but I desire to have my life be written boldly, clearly, and decisively in the Lamb’s book of life.

I pray that each one that reads this will take all that is past this moment, put it in Jesus’s hands, under His blood, and put it up on a shelf…or better yet, let Him carry it…and then, listen for His voice.

Is 30:21 And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This [is] the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.

Ps 37:23 The steps of a [good] man are ordered by the LORD: and he delighteth in his way.

credits – AZ Lyrics

Thanks for joining me in this journey,
In His hands and under His wings,
~Christi
Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

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100 Spiritual Walking Steps – Step 6

Since I am not a professional writer, nor are these posts supposed to have an order. I’m just going to list them in the order in which I receive them…I am not prioritizing…other than step 1. Step 1 is knowing the need for a Savior – and nothing else I write will make any sense unless you either admit that you need a Savior, or you actually have the Savior, Jesus Christ, dwelling within you.

The other day, I sent out one of those email forwards that is cute, and says stuff. It was about a woman named Rose.

The first day of school our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn’t already know. I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder. I turned around to find a wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that lit up her entire being.

She said, “Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I’m eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?”
I laughed and enthusiastically responded, “Of course you may!” and she gave me a giant squeeze.

“Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?” I asked.
She jokingly replied, “I’m here to meet a rich husband, get married, and have a couple of kids…”
“No seriously,” I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age.
“I always dreamed of having a college education and now I’m getting one!” she told me.

After class we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this “time machine” as she shared her wisdom and experience with me.

Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up.

At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet. I’ll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on the floor.

Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone and simply said, “I’m sorry I’m so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I’ll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know.”

As we laughed she cleared her throat and began,
“We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing.
There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success.
You have to laugh and find humor every day.
You’ve got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die.
We have so many people walking around who are dead and don’t even know it!

There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up.
If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and don’t do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old. If I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn eighty-eight. Anybody can grow older. That doesn’t take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding opportunity in change. Have no regrets.

The elderly usually don’t have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets.”

She concluded her speech by courageously singing “The Rose.”
She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily lives. At the year’s end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago.

One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep. Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it’s never too late to be all you can possibly be.

These words have been passed along in loving memory of ROSE.

REMEMBER, GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY. GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL.
We make a Living by what we get; We make a Life by what we give.
God promises a safe landing, not a calm passage. If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
“Good friends are like stars……….You don’t always see them, but you know they are always there

No regrets?
feeling free to dress up?
Have I lost my dreams?
Am I just lying around growing older?
I was wracking my brain to remember the song “The Rose”

Here are some lyrics that really hit me:
It’s the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It’s the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance
It’s the one who won’t be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying
that never learns to live

I have been living my life by fear. These past months have all been about facing my fears…and taking down those giants.
I wanted to call this step Fear Not, but I have so many steps that will be dealing with facing fear…so I think this Step will be No Regrets.

Each evening, when I come before the Lord, I give an accounting of my day – just like the son’s of God in Job 1:6. My desire is to hear Him say “Well done, good and faithful servant; thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord.” Matt 25:23
I’m not all about the ruling over many things…I’m all about hearing “Well Done, good and faithful servant…enter thou into the JOY of THY LORD!”

If my accounts are short, I can enter with clean hands, and a pure heart…and rejoice in the presence of the Lord.
If my accounts are longer, then I need to do some cleaning work…but, by God’s grace, the blood of Jesus Christ cleanses me from all sin…

1 John 1:7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin.

I want to live each day with no regrets…That I have done all that I could do for me, for Jesus, for Jim and for whomever God brings into my life for that day. By abiding in Him, it is possible. And by humbling myself before Him, even my mistakes are tools for my good. Thank you Jesus!

Thanks for joining me in this journey,
In His hands and under His wings,
~Christi
Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

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100 Spiritual Walking Steps – who cares what day it is?

The last five days have been rough.
Somehow, something has happened to my left foot…and I am VERY slowed down.
Somehow, our plans have been delayed because of the fire incident…and knocked us off plan mentally.
Somehow, my energy levels have been in the tank…and I haven’t been able to do the things necessary for us to be ready to move for vacation.
Somehow, Jim’s job sent him to NYC, and both ways the planes were delayed, and now it’s Thursday.
We were SUPPOSED to turn in our keys on Saturday – apartment all done, and trailer ready to roll.
Two wonderful friends have been working very hard to get the apartment clean…but there are things that we women cannot get done – moving heavy furniture out, and making decisions about Jim’s piles in the office.
My left foot is in a boot, immobilized, for the most part. And the off balance walking is messing with my hips, draining more energy from me.
I have cysts on the bones in my left foot(I don’t know what kind), a collapsed dome(whatever that is) and something called vascular necrosis…yipppee!
Gabe has crystals in his urine…and the vet wants me to give him food that he is allergic to, in order to potentially eliminate the crystals…

Feel the whirlwind? What day is it? Who cares about the date, the day, or even where it is on the calendar. Who is in charge?

Genesis 1:5 And God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night. And the evening and the morning were the first day.

Evening and morning were the first day.
God created the days.

Job 38:1-2 Then the LORD answered Job out of the whirlwind, and said, Who [is] this that darkeneth counsel by words without knowledge?

While I believe that we can ask God questions…there is a line beyond which we should not go.  Reading the rest of God’s discourse to Job can really put a person in their place.

I am not in charge of the time.
I did not choose to have the box burn up in the trailer – and we were not responsible.
I did not choose to have Jim fly to NYC, taking days off of his availability.
I did not choose to have cysts on my ankle, and induce horrible nerve pain as they grew.
I did not choose to have FMS or CFS that limits my energy.

What I have chosen is to honor God with my life, by following Jesus Christ as my Savior through the power of the indwelling Holy Spirit.
That means I need to choose to:

James 1:2-4 count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;
Knowing [this], that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
But let patience have [her] perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

I’ve been working on LOVE(1 Cor 13) for many many years. The first definition, or qualification of love is….PATIENCE.

Everything is going to happen as God has planned.
What I’m in charge of is MY ATTITUDE, and MY RESPONSE.

So – What day is it?
THIS IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HAS MADE, I WILL REJOICE AND BE GLAD IN IT!

Thanks for joining me in this journey,
In His hands and under His wings,
~Christi
Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

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Spiritual Walking Steps – Day 4 – what’s inside?

Because of yesterday’s PAIN, today, I had an MRI on my left ankle.

On the outside, the doctor could see the funny lumps that had grown up.  With an x-ray, he could see the goofy bone issues.  The doctor could not see what is going on inside the soft tissues of my foot with just an x-ray. Therefore, he ordered an MRI.

MRI’s are really neat inventions.   With an MRI, he can see MORE than I’d like him to see, but at least, he can see this specific problem, and decide how to treat it.  As I laid in the machine, meditating, and trying to keep my foot still for 30 minutes, I thought about what is inside me.

On the outside – you can see that I’m 5’2″, 240 pounds, female, caucasion, brown hair with silver streaks, and glasses.  You might get the idea that I’m a ‘goody’ type of person – since I’m not wearing revealing clothes.  This would sort of fit with the scripture 1 Tim 2:9

In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;

Of course, different brands of Christianity, or faiths in general, have differing definitions of modesty. But modesty in dress  is on the outside.  One can dress modestly, but have a lustful heart.

From the outside, we can judge a little of the inside, because of the fruit that surrounds us.

Matt 7:16- 17 Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles? Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.

X-rays are for seeing what is inside a person.  Well, not really all of the story, but x-rays can see the structure.  What is holding up all the other stuff?  This is the foundation of the body.

1 Cor 3:11 For other foundation can no man lay than that is laid, which is Jesus Christ.

X-rays can also see how we are building up that foundation, by the strength of the building around it.

1 Cor 3:12-13 Now if any man build upon this foundation gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, stubble; Every man’s work shall be made manifest: for the day shall declare it, because it shall be revealed by fire; and the fire shall try every man’s work of what sort it is.

We cannot know, totally, what is on the inside of a person, but that is what we are commanded to work on!  We need the Fruit of the Spirit, to imitate the character of God, to build with gold, silver, precious stone, and even clothe ourselves with a meek and quiet spirit:

1 Peter 3:3-4 Whose adorning let it not be that outward [adorning] of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel; But [let it be] the hidden man of the heart, in that which is not corruptible, [even the ornament] of a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price.

We can judge some about others, but the most important judging is of ourselves.

John 7:24 Judge not according to the appearance, but judge righteous judgment.

Matt 7:1-2 Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.

Righteous judgement, in my opinion, is judging as Jesus did…by their fruit.  The other key is that, we will be judged by the same measure…so make sure the beam is out of our own eye FIRST!

That brings me to, how can I know what’s inside me? What’s inside MY heart?

Jer 17:9 The heart [is] deceitful above all [things], and desperately wicked: who can know it?

It’s hopeless, right? Of course not…

Ps 139:23-24 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if [there be any] wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

With God, all things ARE possible, even the searching, and judging of our own hearts…and HE will lead me in the way EVERLASTING! But WHAT is inside?

1 Cor 3:16 Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and [that] the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?

When Jesus was resurrected, all the gang wanted Him to stay around, and He said:

John 16:7 Nevertheless I tell you the truth; It is expedient for you that I go away: for if I go not away, the Comforter will not come unto you; but if I depart, I will send him unto you.

The Comforter is the third person of the GodHead, the Holy Spirit that indwells the saints. YOU can do the searching for the doctrines about how the Holy Spirit comes into a person! I’m just saying, we NEED the Holy Spirit abiding in this temple!  Jesus promised SO MANY GIFTS from the indwelling of the Holy Spirit!

John 14:16-17 And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever; [Even] the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you.

John 14:26 But the Comforter, [which is] the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.

We ARE the temple of the Holy Ghost…HOLY Spirit…and the whole reason for the indwelling is for our comfort, teaching and remembrance! EDIFICATION!!!

Folks can put on all sorts of stuff on the outside, and folks can act all kinds of holy, but without the Holy Spirit within, when we go for our Eternal MRI, God will see nothing…because the Holy Spirit within is the spiritual evidence of Jesus Christ as our Savior.

John 15:26 But when the Comforter is come, whom I will send unto you from the Father, [even] the Spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, he shall testify of me:

These steps are not necessarily going to be in order of priority, but rather, in order that God gives them to me to write about.

    • Step 1 – Know your need for a Savior – Jesus Christ
    • Step 2 – Recognize that all good things are a gift from God
    • Step 3 – Cry out to God when you need help
    • Step 3.5 – HE will bring people into your fellowship
    • Step 4 – Know that YOU ARE the temple of the Holy Spirit – and make sure that HE dwells within!

    Today, in my spiritual walk, I’m checking to make sure that the Holy Spirit is dwelling within this temple…and I think I may have some house cleaning to do!

    Thanks for joining me in this journey,
    In His hands and under His wings,
    ~Christi
    Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

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    Spiritual Walking – Day 3 – PAIN!

    After my walk yesterday, and some working around the apartment and such, I had a HUGE PAIN in my left foot.

    I was limping…badly.

    My WALK  was affected – in many ways!

    1. I was having trouble remembering that my mouth is not connected to my foot! Nor do I want my foot in my mouth!
    2. I was having trouble moving from point A to point B. I wanted to just sit, lay, stop and stay – but I wasn’t really wanting to pray.
    3. God’s grace comes to those who ASK – and as we sat with friends, I WAS ASKING so as not to harm anyone with my mouth.
    4. sometimes, God wants you to sit, stay and pray – and we don’t listen so good!
    5. We can’t do this alone…not even Me & Jesus…we are in a fellowship – fellows in a ship!  And I needed some ‘fellas’ to help me out in many ways…and in this blog, I am going to give several shout outs to the fellas(and sistas) that have helped me out today!

    This morning, I awoke, and I still could not put weight on this foot…and I was having an inner argument with God.

    “I do not need this now, Lord!”

    SILENCE

    “I know You know what is best for me Lord – I mean, I do not WANT this now, Lord!”

    SILENCE

    “I am afraid of going through another round of foot surgeries, Lord, and I don’t think I can handle it on top of everything else that is going on”

    SHOUT OUT TO MY HUSBAND, JIM!

    My husband was praying – and he said “I pray that you will go back to bed for a nap, and wake up, and the pain will be gone, and the bump will be gone or much smaller.”

    I had just confessed to him that I was trying to keep my tongue from evil…

    Ps 34:13 Keep MY tongue from evil, and MY lips from speaking guile.

    Ps 141:3 Set a watch, O LORD, before my mouth; keep the door of my lips.

    I didn’t believe…but I confessed that I would trust in the Lord.  I apologized each time I snapped…and I reminded myself, just because I’ve confessed I’m having trouble with my tongue, doesn’t mean I need to abuse his grace by letting my tongue fly!

    Then, verses came up on Face book:

    SHOUT OUTS TO MY ONLINE ENCOURAGERS!

    From Jim Wildman’s FB page:

    Gods standards have not changed. If we want to abide, we must walk His way.
    Lord, who shall abide in thy tabernacle? who shall dwell in thy holy hill? He that walketh uprightly, and worketh righteousness, and speaketh the truth in his heart. http://bible.us/Ps15.1.KJV

    From Larry T Crafter’s FB page:

    No one enjoys having to wait..but as a friend of mine loves to remind me; ” Be Still and know that I Am God!” Waiting teaches us patience and allows us to see God’s plan unfold. As we wait, we learn acceptance, steadfastness and faith that God is in control! When the cloud tarried… then the children of Israel… journeyed not” (Num. 9:19). I will stand still until God’s will is clear!
    Blessings

    And this prayer ring from Cheryl Miller’s FB page:

    Family I need God to do something for me, and I’m pretty sure many of you need him to do something for you as well. So just for today, how about you pray for my breakthrough and I will pray for yours…family lets move heaven today with our prayers. The word of God clearly states, where 2 or 3 come together in my name I am there, (Matthew 18:20) so come on family lets get down on our knees and move heaven today.

    Then, this appreciation note from AntoinitaViolette on FB:

    Today is your appreciation day, not the only one…but, just wanted to tell you that you have been an encouragement to me. Thank God for you, and thank you for saying, Yes! to the Lord…daughter of The Most High and Royal King, making you of the houselHold!Amen!

    How was I supposed to continue in this funk, if the Lord is putting words like these together on Facebook, just to hit me in the eyes, and in the heart, and remember HIS WORD?

    And I got an email in one of my groups…where a dear lady reminded me that we are all in the same boat:

    Well, girlfriends, it sounds like we can all relate!!! Is there something crazy in the air? phases of the moon? unrelenting demands? rogue hormones? Let’s band together in “fellowship”–fellows, or rather females, all in the same boat–and encourage one another! Keep your heads up, eyes on the Prize, resting fully in His promises as we just “do the next *right* thing”!!! ~MT

    Another friend sent email – and she really ‘got it’.

    Christi – I know you did not need this. I am praying that this would heal quickly or just disappear. ~ Love, CB

    This friend, Cathie, even went so far as to ask me, in chat, if I had cried out to God! The honest answer was I’d yelled out, I’d begged out, but did I cry out?  I don’t know if my heart was in a right place,  but yes..before my nap(per my husband’s instructions) I told the Lord, cried out to the Lord – “I don’t think I can handle this! Please, take it away, or give me the strength to bear it!”

    What have I learned?

    1. The Lord can put a watch over my mouth
    2. I have to MOVE toward’s God – because HE didn’t move away from me
    3. I have to CRY OUT to God for HIS help; I have to ASK for help.
    4. I need to wait until I know God’s will, Be Still
    5. I can’t do this by myself.  I am in a ship – a fellowship

    I don’t know if this is 1 step or 5…but the key is that I did beg out to God…and HE put the words in several people’s mouths and hearts – to encourage me in my walk today!

    Thanks for joining me in this journey,
    In His hands and under His wings,
    ~Christi
    Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

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    Spiritual Walking – Day 2 – Who Done It????

    When I walk, I pray.
    When I walk, I listen to music.
    Today, I was listening to Butterfly Kisses, and thinking of my girls, and how I’m so proud of them.
    But one line,

    “Oh with all that I’ve done wrong
    I must have done something right
    To deserve a hug every mornin’
    And butterfly kisses at night”(1)

    My mom used to say to me, “I don’t know what I did right to deserve a daughter like you, but I must’ve done something right.”

    The truth?
    I did absolutely NOTHING to deserve these wonderful children – well, except for obeying the command to multiply!
    I did absolutely nothing to deserve the miscarriages, the children that I never held in my arms.
    My five children are gifts from God – totally undeserved, unearned. Just like the sunshine and the rain that God blesses even the wicked with every day. Gifts, undeserved and unearned.

    Then, I thought about myself, a child of God Almighty, saved by the gift of sacrifice, by the Son of God, Jesus Christ, and sustained by the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.
    Gifts – I did not deserve them, and I did not earn them, and NOTHING I do can change the fact that I can do NOTHING to change my daughterhood.

    I used to tell my children, there is nothing you can do that is so bad that I will stop loving you. It’s true.
    Some have tried to test that out…but even with estranged times,

    I love them forever,
    I like them for always,
    as long as I’m living,
    my babies they’ll be! (2)

    God says the same thing to us…John 10:27-29

    My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me:
    And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any [man] pluck them out of my hand.
    My Father, which gave [them] me, is greater than all; and no [man] is able to pluck [them] out of my Father’s hand.

    We didn’t do anything to deserve this gift …as Paul explains in Eph 2: 8-9

    For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: [it is] the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.

    The first step was to know that I needed a Savior, the second step is – HE SAVED ME not the other way around. The very faith it took to ask Him into my life was a gift from Him, because, without Him, I could not have done it.
    And I know that:

    He will love me forever,
    He’ll like me for always,
    as long as He’s living(eternally)
    My Daddy, He’ll be!

    Jesus loves me, this I know,
    For the Bible tells me so,
    Little ones to Him belong,
    They are weak, but He is strong!

    (1) BUTTERFLY KISSES LYRICS
    (2)Love You Forever by Robert Munsch

    Thanks for joining me in this journey,
    In His hands and under His wings,
    ~Christi
    Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

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    Spiritual Walking Steps – Start Over – Day 1

    I started a blog a while ago about 100 Spiritual Walking Steps.
    I apologized in a blog, for not making sure that I kept that blog going as I traveled.
    Well – I hope to start over…

    Walking – a spiritual walk.
    Why does walking have such a deep meaning to me?

    Well – while in the Navy, I fell and was paralyzed from the waist down for several months – because of inflammation around five discs that were slipped. While I am very good with a wheelchair…I really appreciate the ability to walk.

    After many surgeries on various parts of my legs, last summer culminated in three surgeries on my right ankle. After each surgery, I had weeks that I could not walk – wheelchair bound, and beholden to others to help me get around, and do things. I was very good with the wheelchair, but I wanted to walk on my own two feet.

    Last December, when my daughter was going to give birth to our second grandchild, I was not permitted to travel, because of the recovery of my ankle. Needing a wheelchair would be a burden to them, as well as not being able to walk up and down the stairs in their house, or walk my own dog. This was very devastating to me.

    Therefore – physically, I want to walk! But, while I have not been able to walk, I have thought about my Spiritual Walk.

    The Psalm that comforts me the most, whenever I am in a trial, is Psalm 23.

    The LORD is MY shepherd; I shall not want.
    He makes me to lie down in green pastures: He leads me beside the still waters.
    He restores MY soul: He leads me in the paths of righteousness for HIS name’s sake.
    Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death: I will fear no evil: for YOU are with me; YOUR rod and YOUR staff, they comfort me.
    YOU prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies: You anoint my head with oil; My cup runneth over.
    Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

    For me, the main points in this psalm are about walking, following, and yielding to the shepherd.
    The FIRST step, is making sure that the LORD Jesus Christ IS YOUR Shepherd!
    I did that in August of 1969.
    The Plan of Salvation is simple.

    The thing is – just like exercise, every day, I have to wake up, and say “Jesus, I choose YOU, and YOUR path, TODAY.”

    The other TRUTH is, there are times during the day that I have to say “oops, I have walked off the path. Jesus, I’m sorry, I choose to walk on YOUR path again.”  It seems that the first step seems to often need to be repeated.

    ***I am not speaking about salvation needing to be repeated – I’m talking about needing to notice where one is walking, and making adjustments when needed to get back in focus with Jesus Christ.***

    So – Step 1 for a Spiritual Walk is choosing Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, and choosing to walk in His paths daily.  Maybe that’s steps 1 & 2…but they are the ONLY steps that are important when it all boils down to it.

    For Today, I choose Jesus.  My plan is to choose HIS paths every second of every day – but I know that I will fall.  And just like walking, when you fall, you need to get back up…but I’ll talk about that later.

    My verse for today:

    Josh 24:15 And if it seem evil unto you to serve the LORD, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that [were] on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD.


    Thanks for joining me in this journey,
    In His hands and under His wings,
    ~Christi
    Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

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    Walking in the Spirit – sometimes it’s just messy

    In the last few months, I’ve been focusing on walking in the spirit – the SPIRIT of God, that is.

    One month in Germany started with walking through the whole security issues with an assistance dog, and abuse issues if we needed the pat down screening.

    Hohenekan Castle Stairs

    Some of the stairs in the Hohenekan Castle

    Then, walking up hill EVERYWHERE in Germany! Stairs to my room, UP to go to the bathroom. UP to take Gabe to the bathroom. UP to any castle.

    Then, the walk back to the airport, with folks that don’t speak English all the time. We got through security, and wheeled to the plane just before it flew off…PERFECT!  God was with us!

    Now, the walk of moving out of an apartment – into the RV for the next phase of our lives committed to God’s work.

    The Burnt Wires

    The wires burnt right under the brown spot on the cover

     

    Burnt Electrical Box

    See the brown spot, where the heat was starting to come through?

    But, we had a fire in an electrical box, which endangered our lives, and the RV, and everything we had moved into it.

    Now, we are walking around an apartment with little to no furniture – because it’s all gone!

     

    Why did I go to Germany? To bless our daughter and son-in-law, and to be blessed by them.
    Was there a struggle? Yes…
    Was it worth it? Yes…
    Would I do it again? Yes…
    But some steps were VERY hard! But that was last week….

    NEXT….. today’s walk….

    Why did we give away our stuff? To bless others that they might bless others in return.
    Was there a struggle? Not until now, when we’re sitting in the empty apartment…until repairs are done.
    Was it worth it? We are in the middle of this valley – we cannot see the ‘worth’, though we can trust that God is faithful to HIS promise.
    We can count the blessings:

    1. I was watching a movie, Jim was working later than usual on the computers…therefore: We didn’t go to bed at the usual time, and put on our CPAP’s and miss the burning electrical smell.
    2. Jim is an electrical computer guy…he was not about to quit looking for it…he tore off some plywood to find the burning box.
    3. Jim smelled the burning…many times, he doesn’t smell the smells I smell…but this time, he smelled it, and reacted.
    4. we are under warranty…and so is the RV!
    5. we have two more weeks of an apartment…before we have to be OUT!
    6. we have the mattress out of the RV to sleep on…on the floor…just like when we first got married!

    Was this worth it? Well..I think I’m too close to it, right in the middle of it right now…but I KNOW that God’s work in our lives is ALWAYS worth it…because it brings us closer and closer to HIM. And, this has caused a lot of prayer time and personal reflection in Jim’s and my life in the last 18 hours.

    Would we do this again? – where I’m at right now…NO WAY! This was a valley of the shadow of death! IF, IF, IF…if we’d gone to bed at the normal time, in the normal way…we would be a story on the front page.

    These steps are VERY HARD! I’d rather climb to the top of the Heidelberg Castle twice, maybe three times…maybe up and down all day…to not have to have this feeling that we could have been burned to death.(confirmed by the service manager that looked at the thing).

    BUT – GOD!
    That’s the story.
    BUT GOD – had me decide to watch a movie that kept us up longer than usual.
    BUT GOD – had Jim working with the computers, and notice the smell.
    BUT GOD – the thing didn’t burst into flames when we opened the container to spray it.
    BUT GOD – we are alive – we did not die – we are here to declare the glory of God.

    This morning, as I walked with God, I asked “What happened to Psalm 91..no evil shall befall your dwelling?”
    “Did your dwelling burn?”
    “Well, no…But…”
    “But what? Why didn’t it burn?”
    “Because YOU had your hand on it, and us, and YOU prevented ANY evil from coming near our dwelling.”

    …insert humble pie, and grateful heart…..

    We could have been out on our trip to Ohio…and have to spend the time in a hotel.
    We could have been in it…as I’ve said.

    Ps 91:7 A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; [but] it shall not come nigh thee.

    Personally, I think ‘at thy side” and “at thy right hand” is pretty “nigh” me…but, the point is…it isn’t ME!

    Ps 23:4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou [art] with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

    Walking “through the valley of the shadow of death” seems to be surrounded by evil…the key is “I will fear no evil”. The evil can surround me…but I am dwelling in the Secret Place of the Most High…and in His shadow, I am safe!!!

    Walking this one out means to face a fear I have dreamt about  all of my life…dying in a fire.

    • will this get fixed so that it won’t happen again?
    • is there something else that could happen?
    • how can we make sure that we don’t burn in this RV?
    • Is this safe?

    Where is my trust?  In what/Whom is my faith?  Was this something that we did wrong?  Or was this an attack to test us?  Or was this just something that happened..that we have to learn from, and walk on?

    The main issue here is in Whom do I place my trust? And, I have to admit, I have placed my trust in safety measures…rather than in Jesus Christ.  I’m NOT saying to practice unsafe things, to tempt fate, or test God, but make sure that once having done the practical measures…the trust is in Jesus.

    This thing should not have even been working…it was to connect to a generator THAT WE DO NOT HAVE!!! And yet, power went through it and burned up the wires, and started to burn the box that held it. All the safety features FAILED! In fact, there were NO fuses, we did not trip ANY of the safety features!

    BUT GOD DID NOT FAIL!!!

    Here are my confessions of faith…to walk on through this valley:

    Matt 6:19-21 Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal:(OR FIRES DESTROY-author)
    But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:
    For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

    John 15: 1-14
    verses 4&5 Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me. I am the vine, ye [are] the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.

    Ps 91:1-2 He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.  I will say of the LORD, [He is] my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.

    Prov 18:10 The name of the LORD [is] a strong tower: the righteous runneth into it, and is safe.

    Ps 27:4 One [thing] have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple.

    Ps 23:6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

    I’m walking…I’m moving forward…and God just isn’t finished with me yet.  I’m rechecking my spiritual armor, checking on my spiritual focus, and my spiritual roadmap…and keeping in close contact with my Spirit Guide…not the wierd one, The Holy Spirit( John 14:16, John 14:26, John 15:26), given to me, by Christ Jesus to teach, comfort, and guide me along this path of life.  Maybe, there is something special to this walk!

    Eph 5:25 If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.

    Doing a search for walk and Spirit starts up a whole ‘nother discussion…So, I’m thinking that when I get through this valley, God will have done some more boot camp work on my Spirit walk, and I will look back and say it was worth it.  I don’t know if I’d say I’d do it over again…but then again, the repeat parts are walking with the Lord through the valley of death…and on the other end, there is that table set for us in the presence of our enemies, anointing with oil, and cup overflowing.

    As I walked to the top of each of the castle mounds…I actually thought, I want to do this ONCE…and not do it again.  And yet, I did it again, for the next castle, and the next.

    I choose to walk with the Lord, on the mountain tops AND IN THE VALLEYS, over and over and over, until HE is through with me, and takes me home.

    After Jesus told the disciples about the coming comforter, He said this:

    John 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

    I remember the Mandie  book series – and whenever they got into a rough spot, she would quote this verse:

    Ps 56:3 What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.

    As I sat down to write out my thoughts…I was focused on Ps 91 and 23…but, through this writing, as I’ve confessed my fears, and confirmed my trust in Jesus Christ, God has led me to John 14, to talk about being led by the Holy Spirit.  Interestingly enough, as I am walking through the testing of the possible loss of my dwelling…here is the beginning of John 14:

    John 14:1 Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me.
    John 14:2 In my Father’s house are many mansions: if [it were] not [so], I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you.
    John 14:3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, [there] ye may be also.

    Isn’t that just like God?  I’m worrying about my little RV, while He’s reminding me that HE has a mansion for me…and He’s preparing it for me…and what’s more….

    John 14:4 And whither I go ye know, and the way ye know.

    He has shown me the way…and if I forget, or am confused…The Comforter – John 14:26…shall teach me and bring back all things to my memory.

    Ps 23:6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

    Not the things of this world…but being led on the path that takes me to that mansion prepared just for me.  Now, for that, I’ll walk up a mountain again!

    Zugspitze

    The highest peak in Germany - Zugspize

    Thanks for joining me in this journey,
    In His hands and under His wings,
    ~Christi
    Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

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    100 days of walking in the spirit….what day is it?

    Some ideas are great…but the implementation of them falls short. That is what has happened with this great idea of 100 days of walking in the Spirit.

    On the other hand, the theme of these past days (this is day 127, thanks to this little calculator), has been walking.

    I’m in Germany.
    I have been here since April 19th.
    That was the 109th day.
    I had to WALK through my fears of the TSA pat down issues to get on the plane.
    At my daughter’s house, there are stairs to WALK from the main living area to my living area…12, I think.
    To WALK my dog, there is an uphill path, into the woods that goes uphill. Yes, it does come back downhill to get back home. I’m not going to play the uphill both ways card…though, this little village does seem to go uphill more than down!

    Shortly after arriving, I was stuck with a huge boil on my right toe…gross, nasty and painful. No medical options, and my visit here was just beginning. God said to walk out my healing by faith.
    Oddly enough, this trip has been full of walking, and I am always by my daughter, FAITH! But, seriously, it’s been a walk of faith for me…since I was not permitted to travel here in December because of how unstable my ankle was…not to mention my knees and hips(sorry, I just mentioned them!)

    I have WALKED up to Hohenekan Castle.
    I have WALKED all around Innsbruck.
    I have WALKED Garmisch.I took the cable car to the top of the highest peak in Germany.
    I WALKED the lowest gorge in the Garmisch area.
    I WALKED the palace Linderhoff grounds.
    I have WALKED Munich.
    Yesterday, I not only WALKED around Castle Altdahn, I climbed a set of ladders up into the tallest tower.
    Today, I will WALK Heidelburg.

    But, this morning, I walked in the woods, as I have almost every morning I’ve been here.

    Ps 37:23 The steps of a [good] man are ordered by the LORD: and he delighteth in his way.

    this is a cool verse…with promises that if you fall, you will not be cast down…but how are the steps of a good man ordered by the Lord?

    Prov 3:5 – 6 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

    I’ve been learning to trust in the Lord…not MY understanding.  As I climbed the ladder in the Altdahn Castle, each step was a prayer to my Heavenly Father, in the name of Jesus to conquer the lifelong fear of heights.  My own understanding, and that of my daughter Faith, was that I was not able to climb that ladder.  No one would have imagined I could have climbed that ladder, switched over to the second one, and then, at the top of the tower…walked to the edges and looked down!

    I’m taking steps, I’m learning to walk in the Spirit, and to trust totally in the Lord…not MY understanding!  After 41 years, something should start sinking in, right?  And then, as I was praying these verses as I walked back to the house, the Lord reminded me of this verse:

    Ps 100:1-3 Blessed [is] the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful.

    But his delight [is] in the law of the LORD; and in his law doth he meditate day and night.

    And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper.

    I’m learning to walk in the Spirit…and one of the things I realize was that writing a 100 days set was NOT in the works for me while I’m traveling. But, I am still learning more and more about walking!

    Thanks for joining me…and keep taking steps in your walk…just one foot in front of the other!

    In His hands and under His wings,
    ~Christi

    Day 11 of 100 days to a spiritual walk

    I have been rushing around getting ready to travel to Germany…and to be honest, some of my spiritual walk went by the wayside.
    Multiple calls to multiple places for multiple letters, certifications, papers, and policies…many of which were completely ignored during this travel period. Money, money, money…time, time, time.

    As the months moved to weeks, I realized that I was not getting things done. As I’ve written before, I made other choices…sometimes bad, sometimes neutral, but not always choosing the choices that would move me ahead on the planning and packing for this trip to Germany, the move into the RV, and then the trip to Ohio.

    Now I am in Germany. Early in the morning, I take Gabriel out for a walk in an almost pristine forest as the sun rises over the hill. Back home, I didn’t have time to just go walk, and worship God as the sun came up.

    Now, I am in Germany. I sit and play with my grandson for as long as he’s happy(crying babies go back to their mommies!). Back home, I didn’t have time to just sit with Jim, and smile, and laugh, and bond.

    Now, I am in Germany. I look over the villages, and just drink in the beauty of the landscape, and wonder at the talents of the people here. Back home, I would see things as I ‘flew’ by, on my way to get things done.

    It may have taken 11 days to figure out my next step to a spiritual walk, but i think it is “Slow Down” and “Be Still”. Rest for my soul….I have found it. and it is in Jesus.

    Thanks for joining me in this journey….
    In His hands and under His wings,
    ~Christi