2023 first 100 days – day 1

2023 first 100 days day 1 – January 1

Yesterday, January day 1, I wrote a blog about something very painful to let go of.
I’m waiting for some wisdom from others if this is something that I should share based on my promise to live life real.

sometimes God doesn’t decide to slowly ease you into His path. Sometimes it’s screeching brakes, quick look to see if there is anyone you are going to run over, and a turn before you crash into the exit barrier!

This is what January 1, 2023 had for me.
Something that has been brewing for many years.
Something that affects relationships that are over half of my age old.

And something I did not want to let go.

Is letting go giving up? No.
sometimes letting go is letting God.

and sometimes you realize that the thing in God’s way is ME!

Maybe I will be given freedom to share that post – in the mean time, if God is asking you to let go of something extremely painful, maybe it’s because you are holding on too tight with both hands and need some freedom to see the situation with different eyes.

Hi! My hope in the midst of despair and my joy in the face of depression is because of my relationship with Jesus Christ. If you do not have one, or are not sure you will join him in heaven, please check out these links.

Thanks for joining me in this journey, In His hands and under His wings, ~Christi Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

M. Christine Wildman“The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear. If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation. If I hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.” – from My Utmost for His highest

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Believe

NYE 2022-2023 first 100 days (-1)

The focus for 2023 is letting go.

Tomorrow is the first day of 2023.

Yesterday, I was organizing my Christmas ornaments, and there were many that were from before Jim’s passing, which is to be expected after 42 years!..
I was overcome with both nostalgia and grief.

I wanted to let go of the painful grief, but that is NOT what God would want.

When someone dies, if you are a believer in life after death, which as followers of Christ we are, they do not disappear, but rather “go into the next room”. There they wait(and celebrate with Jesus) until we come to meet them again.

3 We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, concerning those who are asleep, so that you will not grieve like the rest, who have no hope. 14 Since we believe that Jesus died and rose again, in the same way God will bring with Him those who have fallen asleep through[h] Jesus. 15 For we say this to you by a revelation from the Lord:[i] We who are still alive at the Lord’s coming will certainly have no advantage over[j] those who have fallen asleep. 16 For the Lord Himself will descend from heaven with a shout,[k] with the archangel’s voice, and with the trumpet of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. 17 Then we who are still alive will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air and so we will always be with the Lord. 18 Therefore encourage[l] one another with these words. 1 Thes 4:13-18 Holcom Christian Bible Study

As I look back on 2020, 20921 and 2022, I’ve been holding onto a lot of grief that I have not allowed God to process for me.  On the other hand, I have had joy and peace because I have this hope in the Lord Jesus Christ.

As I organize years of Christmas ornaments, and remember, joy comes,  tears fall.  

God is Good.

Psalm 30:5Holman Christian Standard Bible 5 For His anger lasts only a moment, but His favor, a lifetime. Weeping may spend the night, but there is joy in the morning.

Believe Joy is a choice.

I can let go of pain, but embrace the love that left the grief in it’s place as I remain here.  It does not mean it is gone, but I’m taking back the power it has over me.  

Hi! My hope in the midst of despair and my joy in the face of depression is because of my relationship with Jesus Christ. If you do not have one, or are not sure you will join him in heaven, please check out these links.

Thanks for joining me in this journey, In His hands and under His wings, ~Christi Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

M. Christine Wildman“The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear. If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation. If I hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.” – from My Utmost for His highest

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2022 One Word – LET GO

One Word that will Change Your Life


In 2017, I started following the concept that was written about in this book.
in 2017 it was number my days.


In 2018 it was – well, see how I figured it out.

In 2019 it was Guard your heart.

In 2019, I shattered my shoulder and stopped blogging because I could not sit at the desk and type.

In 2020, my arm was still in rough shape, and we were focusing on Jim’s battle with cancer AND the world wide issue with COVID.

In 2021 – I was focused on becoming the Widow Wildman

In 2022 – I took a journey, entitled “Widow Wildman Wanders West wondering what God wants of her”

In a few days, it will be 2023.

And God has given me another phrase (I don’t get one words like others).

LET GO.

Let go of what?

Let it go??? no, that is too small. I did have times over the past few years that I would find myself singing the Frozen song Let it Go, but that was more ‘in the moment’ type of letting go. This was bigger.

All preconceived notions

All assumptions

All perceived rights

All wounds that control me

22 You took off[i] your former way of life, the old self[j] that is corrupted by deceitful desires; 23 you are being renewed[k] in the spirit of your minds; 24 you put on[l] the new self, the one created according to God’s likeness in righteousness and purity of the truth.

25 Since you put away lying, Speak the truth, each one to his neighbor,[m] because we are members of one another. 26 Be angry and do not sin.[n] Don’t let the sun go down on your anger, 27 and don’t give the Devil an opportunity. 28 The thief must no longer steal. Instead, he must do honest work with his own hands, so that he has something to share with anyone in need. 29 No foul language is to come from your mouth, but only what is good for building up someone in need,[o] so that it gives grace to those who hear. 30 And don’t grieve God’s Holy Spirit. You were sealed by Him[p] for the day of redemption. 31 All bitterness, anger and wrath, shouting and slander must be removed from you, along with all malice. 32 And be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving one another, just as God also forgave you[q] in Christ.

Ephesians 4:22-32, Holman Christian Study Bible

Let Go

Therefore, since we also have such a large cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin that so easily ensnares us. Let us run with endurance the race that lies before us, 2 keeping our eyes on Jesus,[a] the source and perfecter[b] of our faith, who for the joy that lay before Him[c] endured a cross and despised the shame and has sat down at the right hand of God’s throne.
Hebrews 12:1-2, Holman Christian Study Bible

Let Go of control.

For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
Ephesians 2:10, English Standard Version.

Me? in Control? HA!

28 We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God: those who are called according to His purpose. 29 For those He foreknew He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, so that He would be the firstborn among many brothers. 30 And those He predestined, He also called; and those He called, He also justified; and those He justified, He also glorified. Romans 8:28-30 Holcom Christian Bible Study

So, let go of what I thought my life would be. Let go of what I wanted my life to be. Let go of my ideas about what I’m supposed to be. Let go of my assumptions and preconceptions of other people, even me. I guess it’s a deeper look at Let Go, and Let God.

I’m going to try to write something for the first 100 days, write something a week about my one word, work on sharing my books, work on Itty Bitty Bible Studies, and finishing out some series. I’m

going to let go of things that do not matter, and put on things that do. Join me, please!

Hi! My hope in the midst of despair and my joy in the face of depression is because of my relationship with Jesus Christ. If you do not have one, or are not sure you will join him in heaven, please check out these links.

Thanks for joining me in this journey, In His hands and under His wings, ~Christi Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

M. Christine Wildman“The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear. If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation. If I hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.” – from My Utmost for His highest

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Advent at the WildBerry Patch – What does Christmas feel like?

Hello!

I grew up in Ohio, and I live in Austin Texas now.

Today does not feel like Christmas.  it’s 81 degrees outside!

I started thinking, what does Christmas feel like?
Does it feel like

Chestnuts roasting on an open fire?
Jack Frost nipping at your nose?
Folks singing yuletide carols,
and dressed up like Eskimos?

Is it a White Christmas
and hearing sleighbells in the snow?

Is it frightful weather so you stay inside
and say let it snow, let it snow, let it snow?

Or should it be thinking of a
Silent Night, a Holy Night

In the little town of Bethlehem?
Where on a Midnight Clear
Angels from the realms of Glory
Sang
The first Noel?

When Shepherds ran Away to a Manger,
and asked
What Child is this?

And with these thoughts,
and, Hark, the Angels are singing,
We sing
Joy to the World, the Lord is come
Let earth receive her King.

O Come all ye faithful,
All ye Merry Gentle men and women remember Christ was born on Chrismtas day!
All Good Christian men and women
Rejoice!
With Heart and soul and voice!

Christ the Lord is born!
Christ the Lord is born.

To kids from 1 to 92
Merry Christmas to You.

May your days be Merry and Bright,
and may you enjoy at least one Christmas that is white!

by M. Christine Wildman
copyright 2022

Christmas Carole booklet

Join me in ushering in the season with O Come O come Emmanuel, and sing it every day of the year! Come Lord Jesus Come!

And Join me in celebrating the Advent season.
I’ve created a season of Devotions for Advent.

Hi!
My hope in the midst of despair and my joy in the face of depression is because of my relationship with Jesus Christ. If you do not have one, or are not sure you will join him in heaven, please check out these links.

Thanks for joining me in this journey,
In His hands and under His wings,

~Christi
Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

M. Christine Wildman“The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear.
If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation.
If I hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.” –
from My Utmost for His highest

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Advent Log with Candles

Advent at the WildBerry Patch 2022

Words of Advent

Hi every one!

It’s Advent again.
every year since sometime in the 90’s, I think 1987 actually, I have celebrated Advent with my family as a way to remember why we walk the Christian walk.

Why did Jesus Come?
Is December 25 really Christ’s birthday?
What’s all about this waiting!

I discuss the symbols of Christ.

I talk about some people of the story of Christ.

But most of all, I open my heart to learn new things from the Lord about HIM and about ME and how to be a better me for the next year.

Please come and join me!

Hi!
My hope in the midst of despair and my joy in the face of depression is because of my relationship with Jesus Christ. If you do not have one, or are not sure you will join him in heaven, please check out these links.

M. Christine Wildman

“The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear.
If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation.
If I hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.” –
from My Utmost for His highest

Copyrights and Legal-eze
There are many organizations that support children and families. Here are ones that we are blessed to be a part of. Please consider sponsoring a child – the life you change could be your own.

Depression, Dreams, Discussion, Despair, Drama, and I ?

What do you do when dreams come up that bring the trauma of the past back into your mind, triggering the body memories, the emotions, the lost feelings, the trapped feelings, the despair that once led to suicide?

I have several outlets.
I write:

I paint – and try to create peace with the paintings:

I do Bible journaling:

Psalm 23

Psalm 23

But is that what takes care of the issues that are buried deep and come out in dreams to be dealt with?

No.

It deals with the emotions of the now…that may or may not have current issues that triggered them.

There are various types of therapy that are used to try to heal the past, and here’s one I found on Goot Theray about the 4 steps to Erasing the Trauma of the Past.

I’m going to say that yes, sometimes this works.
If it worked 100% of the time, we would not have so many Veterans still suffering from PTSD.

In the general population, the numbers are staggering, to me:

70 % of adults experience at least one traumatic experience in their lifetime.
20% of those will develop PTSD.
About 8 million – MILLION – people have PTSD in a given year
1 in 13 will develop PTSD in their lifetime.

That’s a pandemic!
Information obtained from PTSD Facts and Statistics provided by Recovery Village.

I guess I’m not so special – 1 of 8 million…

Depression is Deadly:

More than 32,000 people commit suicide each year in the United States. Additionally, there are more than half a million unsuccessful suicide attempts. Nearly 1 million people commit suicide worldwide annually, and the estimated number of suicide attempts ranges from 10 million to 20 million.

information obtained from Facts about Suicde provided by Treatment4Addiction.

The CDC lists intentional self harm (suicide) as the 10th leading cause for death in the united states. https://www.cdc.gov/nchs/fastats/deaths.htm

Depression, D(T)rauma, Despair, Death.

And those hidden memories that come up out of seemingly nowhere can be the start of someone spiraling down that depression whirlpool, being sucked in by the repeated memory, the ugly thoughts about themselves, the words and actions of the other person, the negative words given by others, the ignoring of the ‘secret’, don’t tell, don’t speak, don’t discuss – JUST DEAL!

the point is that once a person is damaged from trauma…they CAN’T DEAL. That’s what PTSD is all about!

There are chemical reactions in the brain – changes – that affect the ability to “DEAL” –
How PTSD effects the brain – great article.
How PTSD and Trauma affect Your Brain Functioning – by Psychology Today.
The effects of PTSD on the Hippocampus

They key is that trauma is once.
PTSD is trauma over a period of time – usually something that happened that the person could not get to a safe place and sensed a threat to their lives. No escape.
Each person with PTSD is different because each trauma is different.
The brain is rewired.
Many times, maybe most, the sufferer is not in control of the reaction to triggers.
Medications – well, most of them dull your senses…think a medical frontal lobotomy. It depends on the medication. It depends on the person. But I have not heard of anyone that says the medication had no side effects. Sometimes it’s great – like the combo that I am on and have been for many years.

For the most part, I can seem functional.
Then, dreams stir up memories.
Then, something happens that reminds me of an undealt with wound.

Last night – I had a series of those dreams. Dreams about someone that is alive, and continues to do things that trigger my memories, and has no intention of working through those memories, much less changing any behaviors to deal with those memories or apologize.

My other traumas deal with people who are dead, or whom I have no way of knowing where they are.
I can deal with those memories with forgiveness – and letting go.
They cannot hurt me any more.
It doesn’t matter that they didn’t care that they hurt me, repeatedly.
It’s over.
It can’t happen again.
I am safe.
I am free.

But to deal with people that are alive is a different story.
Current issues – that cannot be reconciled – they continue to cause repeated wounds, bringing back up the same issues of being used, being unwanted, being a burden, not being good enough for whatever.

Old issues that were never dealt with – some that led to traumatic actions on my part, have the potential to cause the same whirlpool sucking reaction…depending on where I am in my mental health.

Healthy – I can deal with them by the above method – the 4 steps above. I can address the lies with truth – though some ‘truth’ does not align with my personal concept of truth. I will always see myself as a burden as long as people do not have time to treat me with common courtesy, concern, or compassion. It’s hard to lift your own opinion of yourself when others continue to act in ways that confirm those very self images. If someone felt ugly, and another person of high importance in their lives continued to try to hide their face, or cover their face or disguise them – those actions would confirm the person’s self image – even if words are said to the contrary.

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.

So So Healthy – tired of the fight, but continuing. Trying to pull up from the slippery slope to depression. I try to deal with the thoughts with positives…but positives are hard to come by. and, many times they feel a bit Pollyanna-ish. I don’t live in Disney World where everything turns happy by the wave of a wand. I don’t have a fairy godmother that will send me to the ball where I will all of the sudden be embraced by everyone as someone special. I’m still a nobody – and so many things prove it.

False compliments(proven false by actions or words afterwards, or their lack of validity) – like giving a compliment to try to appease a situation, and the compliment has no validity – thanks for doing the dishes – and I didn’t. Thanks for cleaning up the whatever – you did, not me, you just forgot. You are doing so well in thus and such – when thus and such is worse than two weeks ago. You rode your bike well – when I fell off. Your writing is amazing – what was it about? ummmmmm.

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS – BUT WORDS HURT.

Depressed – I might realize that I need to call my doctor or therapist to help me out of this slide…but by this time, my mind is becoming foggy from the brain chemistry, and I can’t think straight. It has been confirmed that I am a burden – by grunts, groans, ignoring, walking away from conversations, blaming me for the problem of depression, or pain, or weakness, or being hurt by words or actions.

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. WORDS HURT. IGNORING CAN BE DEADLY.

Despair – no way out, no escape, nothing matters, no one cares, no one can help, no one wants to help, I’m not worth help, I don’t deserve help, everyone would be better off without me.

At this time, I have fought and fought, practiced my emergency protocol as a last ditch effort. Above, I’ve practiced every form of therapy option that I know of to clear up this depression, destructive thoughts, and despair. Now, I’m begging for help – and no one is listening. No one wants to understand what’s going on in order to possibly help me unwind this whirlpool, much less pull me out and get reset.

This is when I’m fighting for my life – and if no one else thinks my life is worth fighting for, well, that confirms it, doesn’t it? I’m not worth fighting for. So, why fight? I have nothing left with which to fight, and no one to fight alongside me.

This is where it gets deadly.

How can someone help prevent this downward spiral?

Listen – just listen.
Work through issues – with a concern to actually work out conflict
Be present – most will not hurt themselves when a person is with them.
Help to go through the self care protocols, the self emergency protocols, the path towards a reset.
Understand the triggers – and don’t be part of the problem.

How long does it take to spiral?

I’ve done it in one day – but that time took a very deadly turn.

I talk a lot about love. What do I mean by love?

1 Corinthians 13:1-8 Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
Love: The Superior Way
13 If I speak human or angelic languages
but do not have love,
I am a sounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
2 If I have the gift of prophecy
and understand all mysteries
and all knowledge,
and if I have all faith
so that I can move mountains
but do not have love, I am nothing.
3 And if I donate all my goods to feed the poor,
and if I give my body in order to boast[a]
but do not have love, I gain nothing.

4 Love is patient,
love is kind.
Love does not envy,
is not boastful,
is not conceited,
5 does not act improperly,
is not selfish,
is not provoked,
and does not keep a record of wrongs.
6 Love finds no joy in unrighteousness
but rejoices in the truth.
7 It bears all things,
believes all things,
hopes all things,
endures all things.

8 Love never ends.

Some people think that this is not possible.

John 13:34-35 Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
34 “I give you a new command: Love one another. Just as I have loved you, you must also love one another.
35 By this all people will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.”

Jesus commanded us to love. JUST AS HE LOVED US!!! Would Jesus give us a command we could not keep? That wouldn’t be fair.

Matthew 23:11-12 Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
11 The greatest among you will be your servant.
12 Whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and whoever humbles himself will be exalted.

Jesus said to be a servant – and to be humbled. Isn’t that sort of embodied in 1 Corinthians 13?

John 15:9-14 Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
9 “As the Father has loved Me, I have also loved you. Remain in My love.
10 If you keep My commands you will remain in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commands and remain in His love.

11 “I have spoken these things to you so that My joy may be in you and your joy may be complete.
12 This is My command: Love one another as I have loved you.
13 No one has greater love than this, that someone would lay down his life for his friends.
14 You are My friends if you do what I command you.

This describes how Jesus loved us…laying down his life for us – his friends.

Now, here’s a bit of the twisted thinking of someone with PTSD –
I love my family and friends so much that I will take my own life to relieve the burden of me from their lives.

Yes, I still have those thoughts – especially when I am in the depressed or despair levels. When I am obviously too much of a burden because of my physical, mental, and emotional illnesses, I want to relieve them of those pressures. They have plenty! They don’t need me, therefore, why continue?

Because I have worked through the whole suicide thing, and I’ve become a bit more selfish – I won’t kill myself for anyone.

This took 40 years of work to get to this place – and it still comes up.
I still get confirmation that I am a burden – because my issues do not warrant conflict resolution, consideration of triggers, compassionate understanding, when it’s at the good or so so levels. When I’m suicidal – well, even then, there’s the sense that they don’t want to deal with it again. Making it feel like I really need to make sure that if there is every another time, it will be the last and final time.

I am not a productive member of society.
I’m not even a productive member of our family.
I’m not even a productive wife.

I am just living, existing, with no benefit to those around me.

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. BUT WORDS CAN HURT. ACTIONS AND WORDS CAN BE DEADLY.

How fast? I’ve known the thoughts to come almost instantly during a request for help that goes unanswered.

INSANITY IS DOING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AND EXPECTING DIFFERENT RESULTS – Albert Einstein

The very saddest part of the person with PTSD, depression or any other mental illness is how often people tell them that they are there for them, but when they ask for help, there’s no answer. After a while, why bother. The actions prove they only had words – no actual concern for the person’s welfare.

Now, I can do the Pollyanna thing here and say of course those others have their own lives, and are not responsible for helping someone with mental illness.
I can say that other people are not responsible for my choices, my reactions, my responses – my suicide attempts.

But there are two sides of the coin.
When there are triggers that can be avoided by someone, out of respect, and they continue to repeat that action…do they actually care? If they know that a specific behavior can put someone into a severe depression, possibly self harm and suicide = don’t they have some responsibility?

If someone runs a red light, and hits another car, and kills the drive – they are held responsible.
Yes, it was the other drivers choice to be driving on that road at that time.
The other driver ignored warning signs – STOP signs – and hit the other person.
Who’s responsible?

Sometimes I need help.
Sometimes I need listened to.
Sometimes I need conflict resolution to erase the wounds from the past that keep coming up and poisoning my present, threatening my future.

Does anyone care?

 
Hi!
My hope in the midst of despair and my joy in the face of depression is because of my relationship with Jesus Christ. If you do not have one, or are not sure you will join him in heaven, please check out these links.

Thanks for joining me in this journey,
In His hands and under His wings,

~Christi
Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

“The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear.
If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation.
If I hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.” –
from My Utmost for His highest

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Believe

Even If – I will still believe!

Believe

Some have asked me how I’ve gotten through the last five years… mental health mess, cancer attacking Jim Wildman, cancer attacking me, shattered shoulder in Mexico with two serious surgeries, fibro, cfs/me, nerve issues, vertigo, eye issues, and now, symptoms of this virus.

Some have said…

Forget God helping you through it come of why didn’t God protect you from it? (Does that sound like Job’s wife? Job 2:9)

I posted it is well with my soul on Facebook a little bit ago. Look up that story on Youtube.

Through so many things, I’ve learned to praise him in the storm.

When we love someone, do we only love them when they are fulfilling all our wishes and dreams and desires? Of course not. Or isn’t love.

Amazing Love

But when we believe that there is a supreme being that watches over us, Who walks with us, even through The Valley of the shadow of death… and I’ve been in that Valley several times… that love is wrapped up with Adoration, Worship, Devotion, and mostly Trust.

The sheep don’t understand why the shepherd might move them from what looks like something beautiful to something ugly.

But the shepherd knows.

The cows don’t understand why the cowboy runs around them scaring them into a specific direction.

But the cowboy knows.

The patient doesn’t understand why she has to walk her fingers up the wall and step away and hold her arm in the air and then slowly let it down with some pretty definite pain.

But the physical therapist knows.

The dog doesn’t understand why his trainer continues to have her sit and stand and and down when all she wants to do is play.

But the trainer knows.

I don’t understand what the doctors did when they opened me up and traumatized bones and ligaments and muscles.

But the doctor knows.

I don’t understand in the middle of my storms what the purpose is,

but I know who rides on the storms And He knows.

And because of that, it is well with my soul. My God is so big, so great, and so awesome, that I can trust him with my “ifs”.

Hi!
My hope in the midst of despair and my joy in the face of depression is because of my relationship with Jesus Christ. If you do not have one, or are not sure you will join him in heaven, please check out these links.

Thanks for joining me in this journey,
In His hands and under His wings,

~Christi
Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

“The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear.
If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation.
If I hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.” –
from My Utmost for His highest

Copyrights and Legal-eze
There are many organizations that support children and families. Here are ones that we are blessed to be a part of. Please consider sponsoring a child – the life you change could be your own.

John 13:34

Corona Virus Covid – 19 and ME

By all evidences other than the test, I may have it.

fever rising and falling…but nothing really high…99.2 is the highest, but 95.5 is the lowest.
I’ve talked to my doctor’s office, and I know what to do and what to look for that would determine if I’m to go get testing.

I have basically no voice…
I’m very tired.

I am self quarantined.

Of course, I had planned to isolate for one to two weeks when we got back up here from Florida, since we drove all the way through, and were in many rest areas. Then, my son-in-law and daughter decided that our distancing from each other was ridiculous since we live on adjoining lots. I went over to plan out our garden for this year….son-in-law handed me the baby…and the next day, I’m having fever-ish symptoms.

Everyone thought the cop would be the one that was most exposed…and, he probably is.

As I look out on the sun breaking through the clouds in NE Ohio, and the wet ground shining like someone varnished all the mud…I worry that I exposed my daughter and her children to this bug. No worry about it, I did.

My symptoms are mild…I just don’t feel good. not even really achy, but achy non the less.
no cough, though I haven’t had much of a voice for a week.
no sneezing, but I’ve been medicating for allergies all Spring.
I’m doing breathing exercises that I do after surgeries to prevent fluid building up in my lungs…to prevent pneumonia.

Now, here’s my thoughts for what it’s worth.

Big World Tale talks about this being the seventh plague in the Bible.

Is it? I don’t know.
I know that in 1980, we were sure we understood the signs in the Bible as telling us to look up for our redemption drew near! Luke 21:28

I have followed Hal Lindsey’s ministry for many years.

We watched the original Thief in the Night movies.

We sung Larry Norman’s “I wish we’d all been ready”.

My first big Bible Study after getting married (no job for the first few months) was trying to line up the various scriptural premonitions/prophecies for the Last Days, Tribulation and Rapture.

For a quickie reference to scriptures that mention the end, Christian Crier has put together these top 7 scriptures on the end times. It does not include Daniel and Revelation timelines.

This is a cool study, though I can’t confirm it’s complete theological correctness…besides, prophesy is best understood looking back!

Why am I talking about “THE END”? Isn’t that depressing? Isn’t that scary?

1 Thessalonians 4:13-18 Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
The Comfort of Christ’s Coming
13 We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, concerning those who are asleep, so that you will not grieve like the rest, who have no hope.
14 Since we believe that Jesus died and rose again, in the same way God will bring with Him those who have fallen asleep through[a] Jesus.
15 For we say this to you by a revelation from the Lord:[b] We who are still alive at the Lord’s coming will certainly have no advantage over[c] those who have fallen asleep.
16 For the Lord Himself will descend from heaven with a shout,[d] with the archangel’s voice, and with the trumpet of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first.
17 Then we who are still alive will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air and so we will always be with the Lord.
18 Therefore encourage[e] one another with these words.

In the Bible Hub, you can see that 1 Thes 4:18 can also be translated COMFORT!

In what is my comfort?

1 Thes 4:17 Then we who are still alive will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air and so we will always be with the Lord.

That is my final reward….

Hebrews 12:1-2 Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)

12:1 Therefore, since we also have such a large cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us lay aside every weight and the sin that so easily ensnares us. Let us run with endurance the race that lies before us,
2 keeping our eyes on Jesus,[a] the source and perfecter[b] of our faith, who for the joy that lay before Him[c] endured a cross and despised the shame and has sat down at the right hand of God’s throne.

This chapter goes on to talk about being SON’S OF GOD!

I’m not going to belabor the point of salvation, and the benefits and rewards therein.

This is about fear.
and faith.
and knowing.

SCARY
The virus we are facing today is scary.
The unknown is scary.
I know fear.

A long time ago, I wrote about Giant’s in my land, based on David’s life, and his need to slay giants.
Number two was There are Giant’s in My Land, Part two. It’s about the Giant Fear.
Pilgrim’s Progress by John Bunyan was also an inspiration of recognizing giants, giving them names, then taking back my power from them through Jesus Christ.

FAITH
Faith replaces Fear
Faith is NOT ignorance, or ignoring.
I know faith.

I’ve written a few things about faith:
Advent day 18
My Faith Revealed

Actually – just go do a search for the posts dealing with faith…I try to LIVE by faith.
Faith doesn’t make sense…because if it made sense, if you could see it, it would not be faith:

Hebrews 11:1 King James Version (KJV)

11 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

Just read all of Hebrews 11 for a quick summary of how faith was a huge part of the Bible narrative.

KNOWING
remember who I am, and Whose I am
The Name of the Lord – VICTORY!

Job 19:25
All the things Job went through, and he still declares that I KNOW THAT MY REDEEMER LIVES!!! AND ON THAT LAST DAY…

Am I sick? yes…though getting better.
Is Jim fighting cancer? yes…though God’s got it in control.
Has the world gone crazy with COVID-19? Yes…but those that believe in the dominion of God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit will not be swayed to fear. Anxiety now and then? probably. I have.

But we KNOW our end.

People say about the Bible – “I’ve read the ending and guess what? God wins!”

There’s so many things that can pull us away from trusting in Christ. WE FORGET THE END OF THE STORY!!!

We do have authority over fear.
And if it’s a mental health issue…God has graciously allowed medicines, and research, and service dogs, and behaviors to be studied to help us with the flesh/physical part so that we can dwell in the spirit.

Micah 6:8 Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
8 Mankind, He has told you what is good
and what it is the Lord requires of you:
to act justly,
to love faithfulness,
and to walk humbly with your God.

James 1:27 Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
27 Pure and undefiled religion before our[a] God and Father is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself unstained by the world.

John 13:34-35 Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
34 “I give you a new command: Love one another. Just as I have loved you, you must also love one another. 35 By this all people will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.”

Here’s a quick outline I did of Revelation – the End to the Beginning.

DC Talk I wish we’d all been ready.

Search your heart if there is any fear.
Search your faith if there is any fear.
There are so many great chapters in the Bible to comfort us, because they tell us of those that have gone before, and made it.

Think of the Exodus…and what they went through to get ready to walk to the promised land!
Think of Ruth, who gave up everything, after she lost everything including her husband, brother in law and father in law…and completely changed her whole life.
Think of Jesus, who came knowing that He would die to pay the price for our sins…yep…even Him!

I’m finally able to type again, without massive pain in my right shoulder…see that attitude there? “finally”
I haven’t been waiting patiently through this trial.
But I know that my redeemer lives, and that 1 John 1:9-2:2 lets me know that He’s not surprised that I mess up, that I’m not perfect.

All he asks is that I Love Him…and let Him be Lord of my life. And by loving Him, and receiving His Love, I can Love others.

It’s in that love and relationship that my faith can grow, and I can know.
So can you!

Hi!
My hope in the midst of despair and my joy in the face of depression is because of my relationship with Jesus Christ. If you do not have one, or are not sure you will join him in heaven, please check out these links.

Thanks for joining me in this journey,
In His hands and under His wings,

~Christi
Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

“The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear.
If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation.
If I hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.” –
from My Utmost for His highest

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TIME OUT

Due to a serious accident on June 9th, ChristArtist has not been able to even produce this cover page that would let you know why there are no blogs being produced.

Please let me assure you that there are blogs in the works, the difficulty has been the inability to type, or do anything with the right arm.

Please search the archives, click on things in the word cloud, and enjoy some of the past blogs.

Christi is recovering, in fact, I am typing this with both hands sitting at my computer! There is much recovery to go, but God has had his hand on my through this whole journey.

I do hope to have things up and running again in February!

Until then,

Hi!
My hope in the midst of despair and my joy in the face of depression is because of my relationship with Jesus Christ. If you do not have one, or are not sure you will join him in heaven, please check out these links.

Thanks for joining me in this journey,
In His hands and under His wings,

~Christi
Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

“The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear.
If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation.
If I hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.” –
from My Utmost for His highest

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Itty Bitty Bible Study – Titus 2a

My thoughts for the Itty Bitty Bible Study group on Facebook. (join if you’d like to get these in fb!)

For Chapter One, I utilized a video series from Right Now media. You can get that information from one of the previous studies.

Itty Bitty Bible Study Titus 1:6-9

Titus chapter two, follows Titus chapter one. I know, that’s pretty simple. When the letter was written, there were no chapters and verses. Those were added later to assist us in some way. For more information, check out Wikipedia about why there are chapters and verses!

Why do I bring that up?
Because, Titus 2:1 starts with “but”

Titus 2:1 King James Version (KJV)
2 But speak thou the things which become sound doctrine:

But what?
It refers back to the preceeding passages in Titus 1:9-16.
Titus 1:9-16 King James Version (KJV)
Specifically, talking to the wise old men:

9 Holding fast the faithful word as he hath been taught, that he may be able by sound doctrine both to exhort and to convince the gainsayers.

and those that are not wise old men:

14 Not giving heed to Jewish fables, and commandments of men, that turn from the truth.

16 They profess that they know God; but in works they deny him, being abominable, and disobedient, and unto every good work reprobate.

IBBS Titus 1:10-16 talks about the not so wise old men.
IBBS Titus 1:6-9 talks about the qualifications of elders, or those that choose to be a light to the world – those of us who are called to be ambassadors!

Let’s put Titus 1:9, 16 with Titus 2:1

1: 9 Holding fast the faithful word as he(wise believers) hath been taught, that he may be able by sound doctrine both to exhort and to convince the gainsayers.
1:16 They(the gainsayers) profess that they know God; but in works they deny him, being abominable, and disobedient, and unto every good work reprobate.
2:1 But speak thou(wise believers) the things which become sound doctrine:
italics mine

Now, onto chapter 2.

Titus 2 Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
Sound Teaching and Christian Living
2:1 But you must say the things that are consistent with sound teaching.
2 Older men are to be level headed, worthy of respect, sensible, and sound in faith, love, and endurance.
3 In the same way, older women are to be reverent in behavior, not slanderers, not addicted to much wine. They are to teach what is good, 4 so they may encourage the young women to love their husbands and to love their children, 5 to be self-controlled, pure, homemakers, kind, and submissive to their husbands, so that God’s message will not be slandered.

6 In the same way, encourage the young men to be self-controlled 7 in everything. Make yourself an example of good works with integrity and dignity[a] in your teaching. 8 Your message is to be sound beyond reproach, so that the opponent will be ashamed, having nothing bad to say about us.

9 Slaves are to be submissive to their masters in everything, and to be well-pleasing, not talking back 10 or stealing, but demonstrating utter faithfulness, so that they may adorn the teaching of God our Savior in everything.

11 For the grace of God has appeared with salvation[b] for all people, 12 instructing us to deny godlessness and worldly lusts and to live in a sensible, righteous, and godly way in the present age, 13 while we wait for the blessed hope and appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ. 14 He gave Himself for us to redeem us from all lawlessness and to cleanse for Himself a people for His own possession, eager to do good works.

15 Say these things, and encourage and rebuke with all authority. Let no one disregard[c] you.

Let’s Dig In!

Titus 2.1 But Speak thou the things which become sound doctrine.

What’s the point of sound doctrine?
We are ambassadors to the word of God. Our lives should reflect our relationship with Jesus Christ, and our words should reflect our understanding of the doctrine of salvation.

I have an Itty Bitty Bible Study Post, Titus 1:6-9 about being an ambassador.

The Bible seems to support the concept of “adulting”.

OLD MEN…AGED

Titus 2:2 Aged man. There are other verses that mention about aged men. The point is that as we age we are supposed to become more responsible. Apparently, unlike the animals grow from infant to young adult to being self managing adults in the wild, human beings need to be taught how to be a respectable, responsible adult.

Titus 2:2 Holman Christian Standard Bible (HCSB)
2 Older men are to be
level headed,
worthy of respect,
sensible, and
sound in faith,
love, and
endurance.

Mentoring – some verses that point to the expectation!

And another!

OLD WOMEN – AGED

Titus 2:3-4 Likewise, teach the older women
to be reverent in the way they live,
not to be slanderers
or addicted to much wine,
but to teach what is good.
Then they can urge the younger women
to love their husbands and children,
Titus 2:3‭-‬4 NIV

I find it interesting that the main responsibility for aged women, aside from character is to teach what is good. Now in this verse it doesn’t say only teach women, or only teach children, but I’m just pointing that out. The other primary goal for an aged woman is to urge younger women to love their husbands and their children.?

I’m going to share a little bit of my own thoughts about an aged woman urging others to love their husbands.

My husband and I have been married since 1980. We have 5 children.

We married when we were 19 and 20. We were a young man and a young woman. The keyword is young!

To say that we did not understand each other or how to communicate would be an understatement. We did go through premarital counseling through 2 different churches. That’s supposed to be the guarantee that you are of like mind enough to at least start out the marriage peacefully right?

Along comes the honeymoon.
Jim had no idea how long it would take for me to get dressed and ready to go out to a fine dinner. This was one of our 1st clashes. And James defense, is 1 of 3 boys with a mom who’s only Preparation for a fine dinner is to put on some lipstick. She also never really went in for dressing nice except for one wedding, but even then I’m pretty sure her outfit was very simply put on, her hair dried naturally perfect, and of course the lipstick . Jim had no idea that it might take someone an hour to get ready to go somewhere! And his experience with me as we were dating was I was always ready on time or 10 minutes early. We just needed to recognize each other’s expectations.
At some intersections, as we were driving since we took a road trip for honeymoon, I would sometimes make a comment as to which way to turn not knowing that this was a very sensitive issue for Jim. To him it was me telling him what to do. To me I was just being part of the conversation. We needed to learn a bit more about each other and trigger points or hot buttons.

There issues we didn’t know about each other, like, I have PTSD which has some interesting effects on trust, intimacy, and sensitivity. Then one I can think of that Jim had a problem with was anger and I’m not sure he ever knew he had a problem until he met the irritating, aggravating, Illogical aspects of me.

I was pregnant from summer of 81 to May of 88, and we have gotten to realize in our old age just how much those hormones mess with the personality and common sense of the woman who is pregnant. I would say things that would irritate Jim and I could not figure out why. But thanks to some experience with others who have been pregnant who have said things that have hurt me, I now understand that I was hard to live with!

Add into that 5 children between ‘82 and ‘88, which also included 2 miscarriages, I was either pregnant, nursing or recovering from pregnancy for those 6 years. We did the night time feeding issues, the babies that screamed all night issues, the diapers, sicknesses, and protecting them from themselves issues constantly for 6 years. If I actually want to be correct, it would be 7 years to include our youngest’s whole 1st year. At the end of that year, in April or May of 89, I had a complete hysterectomy throwing more of my hormones completely out the window.

I’m not gonna continue on about the different hormones and when my memories came back from the abuse as a child or anything else because I’ve laid out the story well enough to give you an idea of the stress were in . Oh, of course, money was tight so I needed to grow our own food as much as possible and stretch the penny as hard as it would stretch.

Here’s where I’m going with this.
There are several types of counseling that I got it this time.

There were those that recommended I leave Jim and divorce him because of his anger. But they did not take into consideration my issues and I was aware enough of my issues that I knew it was not an imbalanced issue that caused friction in our marriage. And, in my mind set, I was pretty sure that anything that was going wrong in our marriage was all my fault. I was trying to find ways to just stay married but there were those that felt that I needed to leave him now. I guess it was my own self opinion that kept me from doing this.

There were those that said that I should just be silent and not say anything to Jim and only reply “yes sir” “no sir” to anything that he had to say.

I was also told that if there is any trouble in a marriage it is the woman’s fault.

I was also given counseling on the appropriate method of submission to my husband, and to only speak positive things and to never groan or complain in front of anyone. This one was the closest to right, in that this one kept his perceived character flaws out of the public eye and encouraged me to love from My love of Christ, and the love Christ to placed to my heart. But this backfired. In fact when I tried to talk to an older woman from church, just ask for counsel about how to interact with Jim, she looked at me in the face and said “I thought you said your husband was perfect! So, the problem must be you!”

After separations, hours and hours and hours of counseling, and some high intensity conversations, this older woman(me) has come up with a couple things that would have really helped me when we began. I haven’t yet written up some of the latest but here are 2 that I have shared in the last few years:

This one is to aid communication
Marriage Tools 1

This one helps get your heart focus in the right place:
Marriage Tools 2

This other post just summarizes everything I’ve said and points to love.

I was given a way for me to visually express my desire to love my husband: But I only have it on Shutterfly.

But I gave Jim all sorts of tangible evidences of me loving him and I photographed them and put them in a book because we were moving into a trailer and didn’t want all the clutter of the physical items.

These are ways that I, as an old woman, am trying to teach younger women. to love their husbands without being shackled, without being belittled or talked down to.

1st Timothy 2:9 through 15 talks about women.
After I first got married, I did a deep study in The Bible about what a woman should be, including Proverbs 31.
I have no idea where that study is, but I wanted to find out how to be a godly wife and eventually how to be a godly mother.

I find it interesting that the things older women are supposed to teach the younger women are

  • to be sober,
  • love their husbands,
  • love their children,
  • to be discreet,
  • chaste,
  • keepers at home,
  • good,
  • obedient to their own husbands and that the word of God not be blasphemed.

The reason you need to teach something to someone is because it doesn’t come naturally.
Today, some of these words have very negative meanings.
Someday I may go through and discuss how they are not so negative, but today is not That Day.

YOUNG MEN
Titus 2 verse 6,7,8

  • Sober minded,
  • pattern of good works,
  • doctrine is sound,
  • they can’t be condemned by their speech and
  • enemies have nothing evil to say that could be believed.

While this is listed for young men to be taught, I’m thinking that young women could be taught to have a pattern of good works, to have uncorrupt doctrine, to be sincere, and that their speech is such that they can never be questioned as well.

The speech thing reminds me of the verse about the prophet whose words never fell to the ground.
1 Samuel 3:19

What a lovely thought! What a glorious thing to be said about someone! If one were to do a topical study in the Bible about the importance of the tongue, it would be intense!  Off the top of my head I’m thinking about the verse life-and-death is in the power of the tongue.
Proverbs 18:21 

SLAVES – SERVANTS – EMPLOYEES

Titus 2:9-10
Obedience.
Young women are told to obey their own husbands, and servants are told to

  • obey their own masters.
  • Please them well in all things
  • Answer not again

There are cultural aspects to this, but there is also truth.
There are positions of authority in the Kingdom of God.
Jesus was under the authority of God the Father while he walked the earth, and He said so. And yet, Jesus is fully God. Both God the Father and God the Son highly honor God the Holy Spirit.

If we look at the Godhead, the triune nature of God, and we remember that in Genesis we were created in the likeness of God we can get a hint as to what this obedience means.

A difficulty in the world today that causes us problems with this is the CEO’s of large corporations making so much money when the ones lowest on the totem pole have to have food stamps to make ends meet. Employees and employer issues. Monarchs and paupers.

Many monarchies in history were completely out of touch and many still maybe out of touch with the plight of the common man. King and subjects

Let’s look at this again:

One of the concepts of obedience in the Christian faith is similar to obedience of a child to their father. A child’s father should love and care for the child while honoring their own personality and allowing them to explore things within a safely constructed environment.

Adam-and-Eve in the garden is a great example. They were given this beautiful garden and could do whatever they want and eat whatever they wanted except for one tree.

The Bible says that Jesus learned wisdom and obedience by the sufferings that he went through as a child, which was probably the training of Joseph and Mary as his parents.

Adam-and-Eve decided to eat of the one and only tree out of only God knows how many and disobey.
One day, Jesus didn’t stay with the family but stayed back at the temple discussing things with the priests and scribes. Obviously that was outside of the boundaries his parents had given.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that Jesus sinned, I’m saying that his parents had to bring him back into the boundaries of the environment with which they were protecting him.

Adam-and-Eve did sin, because they went directly against what God had said, and then they were kicked out of the beautiful environment that was the garden, and now we all suffer the consequences.

When a child is told not to touch the hot burner on the stove, and they reach up and touch the hot burner, most parents allow the burn to be the punishment.
a wise teaches that to disobey what has been laid down can bring negative consequences.

The husband is supposed to provide the protection and the wisdom to have a godly household, a safe household, in order for the wife to excel in the giftings that God has given her to provide a peaceful household and a nourishing household.
Can a man run a household? Yes. But men don’t normally have the nurturing gifting that a woman has.
Can a woman provide for a household? Yes. But a woman isn’t naturally the detached overseer.
And then there’s the whole thing about children, they just don’t have the knowledge or the experience. They need to trust their parents to provide them with safe boundaries so that they can explore and have a safe place to process that exploration. When the parents do not provide this guidance, that’s when we have many different and difficult issues with our children.

In our world today we have many men raising families on their own and many women raising families on their own and children that are tossed around because their parents have not become responsible for them. This was not God’s plan

Just like any corporation, someone needs to be in charge to make decisions. Someone needs to advocate for the workers and create a space conducive for growth. And you need workers.

A corporation without a head will flounder because it can’t move forward. Without the human resources personnel to stand in the gap between their CEO and the workers, many abuses end up happening. Unless the business is a one person creativity business, it needs the workers to get the work done.

Obedience isn’t about blind submission and eliminating self identity. The biblical concept of obedience is that it is an act of love, respect, and honor out of gratitude for what God has done in our lives. It is also like the son who wants to be like his father or the daughter who plays imitating her mother.
And obedience is a choice.

Someday I’ll write something about submission and obedience. They are so misused to abuse others. There are many other scriptures that talk about the responsibility of those in positions of authority to humble themselves and care for those that are under their authority as their own flesh.
The church is supposed to submit one to another and to consider others more highly than themselves.

If we take The Bible as a whole, we cannot read it the way it has been used and abused for many years.

Moses was described as a friend of God, there are several times that we have it in writing that he answered God as in answering again or questioned God! If the verse saying not to answer again to our employers for our masters as a has been applied, then Moses was out of line.

David knew he wasn’t supposed to mess around with another man’s wife, no one needed to tell him about it, and he messed around with Bathsheba.
When the Lord told him that the child would die, he cried out for God to change his mind. That seems like answering again!

Elijah argued with God about what God sent him to eat.

Peter argued with God about what God showed him to eat.

So again, we can see that there’s something different here.

Then there is something about being called be the leader of the family.
When Zachariah was told by the angel that Elizabeth would have a child, he argued and was struck “dumb”

And yet when Mary was told she was gonna have a baby without having known a man, she actually questioned the angel and wasn’t struck dumb.

That tells me there’s a right way to question authority and a wrong way.

All of that was to say I’m never going to preach obedience as an aspect of salvation or submission equaling that of of doormat that can be stomped all over without any individuality and mental acuity on behalf of the woman.

The next section of chapter 2 is really the why and I think it needs its own discussion. Please join me!

Hi!
My hope in the midst of despair and my joy in the face of depression is because of my relationship with Jesus Christ. If you do not have one, or are not sure you will join him in heaven, please check out these links.

Thanks for joining me in this journey,
In His hands and under His wings,

~Christi
Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

“The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear.
If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation.
If I hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.” –
from My Utmost for His highest

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There are many organizations that support children and families. Here are ones that we are blessed to be a part of. Please consider sponsoring a child – the life you change could be your own.