Let Go of assumptions of outcome
“I didn’t get all 31 days done in Wisdom and Praise”
I wanted to see a nice complete list of a month in a glance of all of the Psalms and Proverbs in one place so that others can utilize this tool. I missed a couple of days (1 day totally, 1 day not quite right because of not having the vision, 2 days just have video and 2 days have nothing – 6 out of 31). Here’s the thoughts that have gone through my head:
- I’m a failure
- someone is going to miss a day because of me
- people will know that I took some days off
- I didn’t put in enough effort
- The world is going to end because I wasn’t faithful
Here’s how I’ve talked to myself and “Let Go”, I have checked the facts:
- I’m a failure
- – everyone fails – get over yourself
- at least you tried
- you got further than if you hadn’t tried
- someone is going to miss a day because of me
- The days are listed with the Psalms and Proverbs – they can read it on their own.
- Reading these chapters isn’t bound to some date – they can grab any of them
- People are on their own to do their own Bible study – you just provided a tool(yes, incomplete right now)
- people will know that I took some days off
- and very few people work 31 days in a row
- God rested after 7 days
- yes, His work was perfect and complete, but you aren’t God
- Why does it matter what people think?
- because I need affirmation and validation
- but I need to look to Jesus for that.
- because I need affirmation and validation
- I didn’t put in enough effort
- You put in the effort that you had, with rest, eating, and spending time with friends
- You kept up sleep hygiene, until tonight, and even participated in a social activity – this is balanced.
- The world is going to end because I wasn’t faithful
- THIS is catastrophizing
- THIS is a lie
- This isn’t actually a thought, I just thought it fit for drama.
I need to remind myself that as long as I don’t put something between me and God, I’m not sinning, and therefore I am probably OK.
I need to remind myself that God chose an imperfect person to share His word, and that He didn’t expect perfection.
I need to remind myself that the ONE person that believes in me is God through Jesus Christ, filling me with the Holy Spirit. It’s hard, but when it comes down to it, can I settle for the validation and affirmation from the One I believe created the Universe? I’ll get back to you on that one.
But, here’s my letting Go, starting out February, with another Bible Study Project for the month. And here’s my promise to use grace and love, and maybe a little bit of mercy to apply to myself moving forward. I choose Love, Joy, Peace, Patience…you get the point.
How about you? Do you have a song that fits? share it in the comments.
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Hi!
My hope in the midst of despair and my joy in the face of depression is because of my relationship with Jesus Christ. If you do not have one, or are not sure you will join him in heaven, please check out these links:
- Got Questions provides a detailed explanation of The Roman’s Road.
- Billy Graham’s version of the Plan of salvation.
Thanks for joining me in this journey,
In His hands and under His wings,
~Christi
Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.
“The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear.
If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation.
If I hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.” – from My Utmost for His highest
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