I have been digging deep.
Who am I?
Who do I want to be?
What do I want to do?
What do I need to do to get there?

Who am I? Who do I want to be?
MCWW – daughter of the Most High King through the grace of Jesus Christ
Christi – wife to WildRoss – desiring to aim for the goal of the Proverbs 31 wife.
Mom
Gramma
ChristArtist – painter of peace, writer of wisdom(or learn from my mistakes)

I think it’s time to move ChristArtist up on the list – but not neglect Christi, Mom or Gramma.

I have fibromyalgia, adrenal fatigue, sugar issues, and 100 pounds to lose.
I live with pain – but I don’t have to eat to deal with it.

My life has layers – sometimes like an onion, sometimes like a beautiful torte.
1.Faith
2. marriage
3. Home
4. family
5. Health
6. focus(art and writing)

I need to move these around a bit:
1 Faith
2 Health
3 Marriage
4 home
5 Focus
6 family

I need to create a plan for each – each layer has it’s own needs – it’s own scheduling issues – it’s own requirements.
But, #1 – if my faith isn’t where I need it to be – I fall.
Ps 28:7 The LORD is my strength and my shield; in him my heart trusts, and I am helped; my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to him.

But #2 – if my health isn’t at it’s best – I can’t do any of it!
But #3 – if my relationship with WildRoss isn’t up to par – stress for both of us multiplies.

But if 1+2+3 are taken care of they equal 6 –
I believe what I am seeing is that if I put the first three in order – the rest will follow.
Of course, there is the aspect of friends and fellowship – and I can never get away from who I am – friendly, caring, and giving.
I believe that these will flow out of the first three as well.
Health is fitness AND food.
But for me – mental health is key – so I need to focus on that FAITH issue.
Ps 16:11 You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

So, I have dug deeply – as my body has refused to allow me to do anything but some swimming and some walking – AND WALKING UP A LIGHTHOUSE!
AND, while my AF has been acting up with the FMS – I need to go back to some workouts that helped me rehab – so that I COULD do things.

I’m not going to preach this program – but I am going to DO IT.
It made HUGE changes in my life one year – and I abandoned it – because “It’s not ‘real’ exercise”
Me at TTapp Retreat.

And skin brushing…this is so effective for fibro and lymphatic drainage.
Eating what I know is best for me…

At least it is one that I can do – I can improve – and I can heal while doing it.
For goodness sake – I have no hip pain because of the movements I learned doing this!
I have turned around lymphatic swelling by movements that I learned in doing this!
Why have I not continued? Well because I have some issues with some layers and thinking that I need to lift heavy things.

I need to love me enough to take care of me! That is HUGE!

I think I am abandoning this challenge – to focus on these areas…which actually is in line with several of my first challenges this year.
And it is in line with finding out who I am – and what I want to be and do.

Actually – if you don’t have a goal for where you are going, isn’t that just called wandering?
My deep digging this last week has put some goals in to focus – some reality into CLEAR focus – and clarified my focus.

On that note –
No eye surgery – A week ago – the blindness disappeared. I I wasn’t looking forward to eye surgery – or being 1/4 blind!
Delayed neck surgery – I found a chiro that works with this stuff – and by God’s grace, chiro and TTapp have strengthened herniated discs in my low back, I want to give this a try! He also does the ART massage, which may help with the fibro issues.

There is another issue that has come up, that could be serious – but I am waiting until I speak with that doctor. Or it could be my body getting used to being forced to actually move!

If you have read this far – thank you.

Thanks for joining me in this journey,
In His hands and under His wings,
~Christi
Ps 63:7 Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

“The Lord does not give me rules, but He makes His standard very clear.
If my relationship to Him is that of love, I will do what He says without hesitation.
If I hesitate, it is because I love someone I have placed in competition with Him, namely, myself.” – from My Utmost for His highest

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